succubus and incubus.

hey guys um so long time this is to report a past experience that I had. so this occurred when about two or three years ago. It was a normal night had my dinner tucked my self into bed read a little and drifted into deep sleep, i was suddenly awake i don't really remember the time but i was fully conscious but unable to move at all i couldn't even open my eyes i was drenched in sweat and i was scared as shit i felt deep fear for the first time i was so confused i didn't know what to do or rather was unable to do,i repeatedly began chanting the name of The Lord and after sometime i could open my eyes yet couldn't move the rest of me a wave of relief flooded me and after some more time i could move freely out of fear i ran to my parents room and spent the night there with them it went on peacefully. i told my mum but she didn't believe me she dismissed it as a dream or feeling. This never ever recurred a few days back when i was again in a deep sleep state so deep not even dreams were seen or felt or heard,i swear upon all the Gods a hand touched me on my lower back i felt it so much i woke up and thought it was dad only to see no one i knew i couldn't sleep there again and i went to my parents room again the next day which was yesterday i told my dad he didn't reply much. i really have no clue what happened till now. from the past few nights a fear to sleep alone envelops me from the past few years that is, one evening i had been to my neighbors place to play with their baby daughter when a devotional song in honour of Lord Karthikeya in the Tamil language caught my ear i checked it out on YouTube and found out it was called Skanda Shashti Kavacham i noticed that,that night i had a peaceful sleep and no fear at all i began depending  on the song and it never failed me i gradually weaned from the practice and comforted myself to sleep. after the recent incident i listened to the song again today wonder how the night goes,but being a man of science i was compelled to do some research i stumbled about this article on succubi and incubi who are male and female demons technically believed to engage in a heterosexual union with a victim a person born of such unions were mystical the magician Merlin is alleged to be born of such a union and what does this union feel like ? it's marked by an inability to move at all although conscious exactly like my first experience i obviously am not sure about the sexual part of it because i had no feeling at all. another medical condition was sleep paralysis basically the same thing however it's mentioned that this occurs when one sleeps in the supine position which was the position i was sleeping in although i usually never sleep in this position,now this happens when one is in between two stages of sleep and the mind is confused. however research is still going on and scientists aren't sure what exactly it is as cases aren't numerous. i obviously have no clue about how to deal with this so i'm writing it down here another fact that worries me is that there are counterparts for succubi in almost all cultures a very unique thing beause how could everyone at that time know the same thing ? really freaked me out. but i still affirm it to be a medical condition. i still feel uncomfortable and insecure at night.  

Saluting the Female

The minute we say God we associate it to a Supreme being who is all powerful all generous and merciful,and most of us consider this Deity to be male in fact most of us assume that this Being is male. Historically speaking the first places of worship essentially honoured a Female God a Goddess. The woman and her ability to reproduce to give life was considered divine and miraculous She according to the ancients was therefore worthy of worship, but in the later ages especially in India women were seen as binders they bind us to the earth the west saw disgust in Her as She had cycles and was seen as a capricious bringer of lust not worthy of worship it was at this point that God in the west became strictly male. The female gender is indeed the cause of attachment but I feel that it is so because the make depends on her for everything especially in the current age as infants the death of a mother is the death of the babe as children too we depend on mothers psychology shows that one can live as a child with out the mother but it does have considerable psychic impact especially during adolescence. The young man needs her to satisfy those surging testosterone levels and as a daughter she serves you when you are old. This high dependency is something that cannot be ignored. It was precisely for this reason that the Female is honored all Cultures consider the Arts to be female for only the female can soothe the mind prosperity is female power itself is female. If you are a man who considers women to be inferior remember it was She who gave you life She is raw Nature too sublime to be treated with respect and honour. Salutations to the Goddess.

The Muses

My actual first post must go to the Muses these less known Greek deities are 9 in number they are the goddesses of various aspects of literature hence I rightfully credit this to them. These goddesses were the daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne ( memory ) now if u read Greek mythology u will usually be able to establish a connection between parents and children or brother and sister for example Ares and Aphrodite war and love respectively have an affair in Greek mythology to produce Harmonia goddess of harmony to show that love conquers war, however I couldn't establish any connection here. The Muses are one of the easiest deities to experience they're presence if not anywhere can be clearly felt in any interesting literature class now I even began associating them with different moods or passions to be more precise for example Polyhymnia the Muse of Hymns can be felt during religious singing especially during that point where you are completely immersed in  it  i.e the thoughtless state something i request readers to try getting into once. Plus as with other Greek gods the Muse wreck vengeance too reminds of those pathetic poems we had to learn. They also patronize poetry and music. 

Me

My first post ...I obviously will describe myself in this post. So I'm an 18 year old Indian guy my name's Anirudh. I study psychology ( ug ) at Jain University Bangalore. I'm a native of Palakkad Kerala born there but brought up in Bangalore as my dad works in Bangalore. I'm a Hindu cum greek neo- pagan. In this blog I'll mainly be posting stuff that catch my attention. You'll mostly find a lot of Greek Mythology , Science, Psychology, Religion, Paranormal activities, History and politics. And other stuff.